Being vulnerable out loud again

Is disconcerting. As much as I want to stop I won’t because of all the time I spent wanting to be heard and not speaking for fear of leaking out too much. Now I am rushed to find a different way to live because it is not sustainable to live like this.

I crave open honest loving connections, if I am not that in the world then it is harder to attract and cultivate that in my world.

I want that and so stumbling and trembling I am doing it. I am rebuilding myself and with this I have a forgiveness conversation with myself many times daily. It is so easy to start beating up on myself and lose the connection to who I am, and that’s okay. I am here and with each foray into self I come and become more of the self I seek.

Breathe in, breathe out, and keep walking.

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